There were some times in season 1 that I truly was so mean and I would like to publicly acknowledge and apologize to my friends and family for representing myself so poorly and for contributing in contentious ways to the family dynamic. I am truly and deeply humbled and sorry. It has been painfully embarrassing to realize on national tv that my mind was not whole. I was not myself, nor did I realize what I was doing or saying at times.
In episode 3, my little Kyra was injured by a tree falling on her at the same time my husband sustained an intense leg and back injury. That was not the first time that year that something drastic had occurred in our family. Just a few months prior to filming one of my sons had an unnerving incident sustaining multiple head injuries, weeks later another son was hit by a car while crossing at a crosswalk, and a near fatal occurrence with my daughter just months previously. Add to that the pressure of having a new sister wife and a new baby, who himself was born prematurely and required another trip to the hospital, moving to a new house and going on a reality tv show, my mind was unable to sustain the pressure.
Since that time, with the support of my family, I have been able to take some time off to heal and recover. I would like to publicly thank my two sisterwives and my husband for their support. Thank you for every kind word and for your sympathy. Thank you Angela for stepping in and gathering my little ones beneath your wing while I have been in the process of recovery. Homeschooling children can be a heavy burden at times, but you have born it gracefully and joyfully. You have forged bonds with the children that will last a lifetime. Thank you for every bedtime story, every glass of milk and every comforting touch you offered my children while I was gone. And to Auralee, thank you for so masterfully organizing meal cleanups, for making dinners while I was away and for organizing happy excursions for the children.
Times like this can be very trying on a family. Sometimes it seems like we are stretched beyond our capacity. Life has a tendency to do that, and life in a plural family can be especially that way.
UPDATE: (Added by Drew)
Many fans have been asking whether or not Angela wrote this apology on April’s behalf. Below are a few screenshots of April’s texts addressing her authorship of the apology. The last text screenshot has been left out because it explicitly addresses details April later determined were too personal to be made public (and those were not included in the above post).
We hoped fans would read April’s words as endearing and worthy of increased compassion for April’s personal challenges while also allowing viewers to see our family drama from season 1 was not representative of our normal family life. As a family (including April), we were all devastated at how poorly our family represented our Mormon fundamentalist friends and peers. We’d hoped to show how most polygamist families were normal, good people. Instead, unforeseen challenges led us to be a poor example of our lifestyle, our culture, and our peers. While we may each have our own accountability to bear in how the first season went, this was April’s effort — and I was personally very proud of her for her courage in preparing it for publication.